‘We understand you’ve taken an overdose, Janice.’
‘What have you taken?’
She glances down at the torn blister packs on the sofa beside her.
‘All my meds for the next two weeks.’
I pick up the packs and start writing down the names of the meds.
‘Any alcohol with that?’ I say, sounding like a waiter.
She shakes her head.
‘Alcohol doesn’t agree with me,’ she says.
‘I think we’ve met before,’ says Rae. ‘Didn’t I take you in with something similar? A couple of weeks ago?’
Janice looks up and squints.
‘Yes. You did. I recognise you now.’
‘So what’s happened between then and now?’
Janice closes her eyes. ‘It’s the anniversary of the twin towers. I lost a good friend,’ she says.
‘Okay. Shall we go down to the ambulance, Janice? Have you got everything you need?’
The words seem to cross over slowly, a satellite delay. But then she sighs, leans forward, carefully gathers up her cigarettes and drops them in her pocket.
After we’ve handed Janice over at the hospital, Rae passes me a cup of coffee and we settle back into our cab seats. The A&E car park is crammed with vehicles – ambulances, cabs, private cars. It’s like a monster version of one of those puzzles where the tiles are all in the wrong order and you have to find the right sequence of moves to reveal the picture. We sip our coffee and watch it play out.
‘I suppose you can divide suicides into those that want to be found and those that don’t,’ I say.
‘I went to this one suicide a little while ago,’ says Rae. ‘A hanging, up in a tree. And I mean – way up. He’d climbed up this enormous old oak tree as far as he could go. It must have been a good fifty or sixty feet. And he was wearing this big black leather trench coat, and heavy black boots, like he was out of some industrial metal goth band, you know? A dog walker found him – surprise, surprise – god knows how. You don’t often look up, do you? That must have been a shock. When we got there it was still quite early in the morning, and I remember there were all these crows in the wood making this colossal fuss – caw, caw, caw - flying around and carrying on like they thought the guy was a giant crow trying to muscle in on their territory.’
She takes another sip of her coffee, then balances it on the dashboard to blow her nose.
‘There wasn’t anything we could do,’ she says, stuffing the tissue back into her pocket. ‘I sure as hell wasn’t going up there. I’m terrified of heights. I get stressed changing a light bulb. Anyway, the police came and took over. I never did find out who retrieved the body.’
She picks up her coffee again.
Janice emerges from the A&E entrance. She carefully pulls one of her roll-ups out of her pocket, lights it, then stands there quietly smoking, watching the traffic.