Friday, December 06, 2013

kitchen towel

Gary’s asleep when the psych nurse opens the room and shows us in. She shakes him gently by the foot; he groans, rolls over and shields his eyes.
‘Transport’s here,’ she says. ‘Come on Gary.’
He sits up and blinks. Fumbles around on a side table amongst papers and newspapers, finds a pair of heavy black frames, puts them on, blinks at us through them.
‘Sorry to wake you so early, Gary,’ I tell him. ‘We’ll wait outside for you to get ready.’
‘Can’t I go like this?’ he says. He obviously just wants to walk straight out, for speed, but he’s only wearing hospital trousers. It might be twenty-four degrees in this secure room, but outside the stars are out and there’s a rime of frost on everything.
‘No rush,’ says the nurse. We leave him to it.
Outside she gives us the basics. Gary was sectioned in the street by the police. No violence to himself or others, low risk. Has had some diazepam just in case, and to help with any alcohol withdrawal. Is going to the only available psych bed, thirty miles north.
‘Last month was worse,’ she says, handing me the paperwork. ‘Last month there were no beds anywhere. Last month he’d have been going to Alaska.’
‘Cut-backs?’ I say. ‘Is that the problem?’
She shrugs. ‘Cut-backs. Demand.’
Gary gets ready pretty quick and we walk outside. I settle him next to me in the back and we set off.
I put the small overhead spots on and turn the big lights off.
‘Mood lighting,’ I say – my usual quip when I do this. But the way the spots glint off his glasses, it doesn’t seem so appropriate, suddenly.
‘Fine,’ he says. ‘Thank you. Thanks. Where am I going again?’
‘To another psychiatric hospital, Gary. So you can get better. It’s a nice place. I’ve been there before.’
‘You’ve been there?’
‘Yes.’
I want to add Not as a patient. But I don’t. ‘Plenty of art on the walls,’ I say instead, which sounds like we’re admitting him to a museum.

* * *

He’s calm en route. We chat about this and that.
‘How were the police?’ I ask him. ‘It’s not an easy situation.’
‘No – but they were great. No complaints at all.’
‘That’s good to hear.’
He asks me about my job, how I got into it, the kinds of things we come across. He asks me about the equipment in the back and I point the main things out from my seat.
‘What’s that?’ he says. ‘A cat-flap?’
Everyone notices it. For some reason the fitters used a cat-flap for the bin.
‘What about the cat?’ he says.
‘Never seen it,’ I tell him.

* * *

‘I’ve been drinking a lot more lately. A few drugs. Stuff. I suppose it was all getting a bit out of hand. Then dad died. I don’t know. I thought I was getting through it. Now this.’
He takes his glasses off, pinches his nose, like it’s quicker to adjust the bone than the frames.
‘I didn’t hurt anyone, though,’ he says, looking at me. There’s a tremor to him, a sweat of recognition. ‘Thank Christ I didn’t hurt anyone. Have you got family?’
I tell him I’ve got two girls, eight and twelve.
‘Have they been hurt?’ he says.
‘No. They’re fine,’ I tell him. ‘They’re absolutely fine.’

We’re silent for a while. He yawns so widely every minute or so I think his head will tip right off. But each time he comes back to himself, to his warmly illuminated seat, and the scattering of papers on the trolley in front of him.
‘Sorry,’ he says.
‘It’s late, Gary. I’m yawning too.’
‘You can’t yawn. You’ve got to stay awake.’
‘I suppose so.’

After a while he tells me what happened. How he’d got it into his head he was a paramedic on a call, a terrible emergency no-one wanted him to get to. He’d driven at speed through town with his head out of the window shouting nee nah nee nah. Until the police pulled him over on a main road, when he jumped out and stood there, with his arms outstretched in the middle of everything, screaming for kitchen towel.
Kitchen towel?
‘I didn’t know what I was saying,’ he says, folding his arms tightly, yawning again. ‘I thought it was an emergency.’

9 comments:

TomVee said...

Have you read Hitchiker's guide yet? This episode would appear in a new light...

jacksofbuxton said...

In fairness to Gary,the way Government Cuts (there's a lost consonant there) have been applied,that could be you in a few weeks time.

Spence Kennedy said...

Tom - Completely forgot about Hitchhikers. Will get on to it after 'The Executioner's Song' (great, btw).

Jack - No doubt they're working on some drones to replace us (maybe Amazon could help / provide). The only trouble is, where do the drones take the patients when there aren't any beds? No doubt they're working on that, too..

TomVee said...


"The only trouble is, where do the drones take the patients when there aren't any beds?"

Solution: Replace the patients with drones as well.

Spence Kennedy said...

Especially geometric drones, so you could stack them.

Anonymous said...

You can get industrial shredders, could dump the time wasters there, save a fortune and leave the service for those that need it.

Spence Kennedy said...

My only worry is that as soon as they introduced the shredders, half the population - incl. me - would end up headed that way. We'd have to form an underground resistance and fight the drones...

Mexican boy: Viene la tormenta!
Sarah Connor: What did he just say?
Gas Station Attendant: He said there's a storm coming in.
Sarah Connor: [sighs] I know.

Anonymous said...

:) Going to have to watch that again I think.

Some of your blogs make me think of this quote:

The Terminator: It's in your nature to destroy yourselves.

Spence Kennedy said...

Great film. Linda Hamilton in T2 - icon. :)